Day 13 is the letter M - Me
If you are friends with me on facebook you will be aware of what has been happening in the Bennett household lately. Our Kaycee was rushed to hospital on Saturday 16th August after a 6 day mystery illness, so i have been very pre occupied the last 2 weeks. She was diagnosed with Pyelonephritis (in English that is a Kidney infection to you and me :D) which thankfully has done no permanent damage. She will be susceptible to future attacks and future UTI's but is on the mend.
The last 2 weeks have been horrible. Me and him indoors have been on separate sleep patterns, she needed constant supervision as her temperature would shoot up to 40°C (104° - 105°F) without warning. It would then be a battle to get it down and settle her back to sleep. It has been a constant worry, with a serious lack of food and sleep, things that were made even harder when she was admitted to hospital.
The staff at Nottingham Children's Hospital were fantastic. Those who know me personally know i have a fear of hospital and will avoid them unless necessary. Of course as this was my child, my fears did not matter. I think staff sensed i was uneasy and the nurses on the children's assessment unit done a fab job at making sure both me and Kaycee were comfortable. They were quick to pump her full of antibiotics, explained every single process to us every step of the way and patient with Kaycee when it come to her blood tests.
I am not going to give a really long post about it all, for anyone whose children have been ill they will understand where i am coming from. It is normal and it happens but the whole process scared me. We come very close to her being very ill and when it come back her kidney function was returning to normal, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off our shoulders.
She was discharged on 20th August after finally being able to keep the oral antibiotics down and having no temperature spike for 24 hours. We did not have to wait long after the doctor gave the ok. The nurse come back with a big bag of medicine and gave us our instructions. The hardest part was to remove her cannula :/ Painful! Now we are home, we are taking each day as it comes. Things have to change around the house and i have been educated on the signs to look out for in the future. There is a possibility that her kidneys will never return to normal and that one day, hopefully very far in the future, she may need them looking at. For now though she is doing well and after 14 days we managed to get a full meal down her. She is on double dose antibiotics for the next 2 weeks, which make her very drowsy but she is back to her old smiley self :D
As her mum it was the worst thing that could happen. No parent wants to see their child in that much pain, knowing there is nothing that they can do about it. Having to fully trust a complete stranger to do the job you should be doing is heart breaking and for someone like me who trusts no one, its even worse. Now we are just playing a waiting game. Waiting for news that the medicine is working, waiting for news that her kidneys are not permanently damaged, waiting for her to start eating normally again and lose the darkened tinge in her skin she has been left with. Waiting for me to stop checking her temperature every hour on the hour! or asking if she is peeing normal or in pain. I think she handled the whole situation so much better than me, something that makes me a very proud mummy. Despite being in pain she has carried on grinning and never once complained. I haven't slept properly in over 14 days, i spent 10 of them days eating nothing but sandwiches and fruit and pretty sure i now smoke about 6 cigarettes a day instead of my usual 15. I was referred to in the hospital as supermum. I sat there by her bed just watching her, too scared to go to sleep because she was so unstable. While flattered, I do not consider myself a supermum, i just consider myself a mummy. I would have given anything to trade places with her in a heartbeat. I was just doing my job. I know i am biased but i do just think it was her awesomeness which got her better :D